Beeeeeeeaaaaccchhh. And you got what you deserved! How’s it feel being on the other side of things? Did me wrong and look what happened. The universe was in my favor, gave you a taste of your own medicine. At the end of the day, I’m still nice to you. I’m still trying to be cool. I have not, can not and will not ever rub it in your face that you messed up. I have not, can not and will not ever make you feel you feel as though you had no self-worth, like you did to me. Because I’m a nice person like that. I kill people with kindness. That’s just me, that’s just how I do.
It means I trust you enough to hope that you won’t judge me or use it against me one day. Please don’t make me regret breaking down my walls for you. Please don’t be another reason for me to continue to believe that every single person that walks into my life will eventually let me down. I trust you, you have no idea how hard that is for me to do nowadays.
I’m actually really glad we talked, cleared the air and I hope that we can move forward from here. I really was tired of feeling unapproachable, angry and anxious all the time. I didn’t mean for it to go on for this long. I’m not that kind of person at all. I just like to be straight up and honest. And I finally had the guts to get it over and done with. But yeah, I hope…we can be cool again. I’m sure it’ll take time, but I’m willing to put the effort to be friends again. “Positive vibes, Dar. Just be positive. Think positive and be positive” Thanks to my friend who gave me this advice. You don’t know how much that helped ease my nerves.
Waiting game. Currently waiting for him to call back =__=I know I have nothing to apologize for, but…I really need to clear the air and get this over with. I just hope the outcome is positive. I’d really like to start over as friends. I’m soo done with being angry and acting like strangers.
It’s in my grasp! I’m SOO close! Just did a major and GE course check and I’m ALMOST there. IF all goes right, I’ll be done by the end of summer. But now here’s my biggest dilemma, to go to law school? Or take over the family business. Here’s my options:
Option A) Continue onto Fall 2014 qtr, take easy A classes to boost my GPA, Take the LSAT in October and apply for law schools
Option B) Graduate at the end of summer qtr, take the adminstrators license for the carehome business, take over the business, fully certify our house, then purchase another home/carehome and the rest is history.
At the moment, I’m thinking of doing option B as a short-term type thing (2-3 years) So that I can have a stable income and then put myself through law school. Also, then my parents could retire and I can manage the business. No lie, I would be a strict ass boss. I legit care for the well-being of patients and I do not condone elderly abuse/neglect or any form of theft from my business. NOPE. no way! I’m finishing my undergrad degree practically debt-free thanks to my parents for paying everything. I have a $3000 loan, but that can be paid easily through a year. Sigh, I have some big life decisions coming up too soon. And I really don’t know what to do.